I enjoy attempting the impossible of stepping outside myself. I like the feeling of being trapped in my own skin stuck there with that view of my hands at the computer or brushing my teeth wondering who that person is that needs a cleaning. I wonder why I think I need a cleaning. I wonder about my attempts at creating balance for myself where I can be content and then seeing how oppressive and closed that feeling can be. In the end I find the most satisfaction when I can displace myself momentarily and see myself as an oppressor which is usually followed by seeing myself as a poser.
“Greener Than You?,” the installation for the Manor of Art show looks at how the ideology of Green is an idea where we find comfort even though we have unease at the same time. The idea of being Green is both foreign and familiar. We only see parts of our ideologies and hope to find satisfaction in the part we know. In ideology we often use others as touchstones for how well we are doing in it and our contentment is usually short-lived. We think of being Green as our own and forget the systemic nature of how it became something to be. Our ideologies, even though there is internal contentions, are usually places where we find comfort, enjoy being, and can congratulate ourselves for getting it even if we sometimes don’t. When I think of being Green I can’t help but think that sometimes things change even when they don’t.
